When you can’t fix it

A time will come when your child comes to you with a hurt, and it won’t be the superficial scrape on their knee, or the worse but still small conflict with a friend, it will be hard.
I can tell when something is up with my children, in that same way any of you can tell when something is up with those you love. My Aînée is one that no matter the size of the hurt it must be pried out from her, and I’ll be honest there are times where my patience doesn’t stretch to this push / pull to get the problem out. So it was the other day, playing the ‘what’s wrong’ ‘nothing’ game, I was getting frustrated and ready to just give in and leave her to sort through whatever it was.

Thankfully she reached her tipping point before I reached boiling point. The words tumbled out and bared her fresh raw emotional wound.

A close friend is being married soon.

I say being not getting as it is clearly an arranged marriage. Of a seventeen(ish) year old girl. To someone she barely knows. In Gaza.

I’ve always tried to teach my children to be open to other cultures, and to not judge them looking through our cultural lens. But how can I reconcile this, this wrong that sparks fear in my child. That puts another child in the sudden adult position of wife, but not wife as we see it but wife as an object to be passed from old family to new.

I don’t condemn arranged marriage as a whole, I do feel it can be an equally valid path to a fulfilling marriage, in the circumstances where both parties have a true and unfettered final say in the arrangement.

I do condemn the idea that a young girl is ready to be pushed in to this role before finishing her education (although she will be “allowed” to go to university after the marriage).

Since I was told, I have been trying to process this in parallel to my eldest trying to process this. I watch her and the freedoms she has, the choices that I would never take from her. And there’s a sorrow, a sadness that this milestone has been reached that finally there is something I can’t fix, or rationalise, or soothe. Because while we can look at the positives, nothing will change that deep sadness and fear for a future that was decided too soon and in a context that we cannot and would not bridge.


6 thoughts on “When you can’t fix it

  1. I can’t help but feel exactly the same. I think I’m quite tolerant with other cultures but it’s sad that a 17 year old in this day and age (and living in Australia) is forced against her will to marry someone she doesn’t even know.

    • I think what I find hard is from what I know she’s resigned to the idea, I guess when you are raised to know that’s what is expected it runs through your mind differently. I just feel its way too young to understand the depth of that decision.

  2. I remember that feeling of being a teenager, having a problem that I did AND didn’t want to talk about. My Mum became an expert at prying things out of me! It must have been so frustrating for her!!
    But this is really heavy. And it’s really sad. How terrifying for P’s friend.

      • Getting married off is bad enough but having to move to Gaza…?!? Its a war zone! I just wonder about how his could ever be considered a decision made with their daughters best interests at heart 😦

  3. Apparently her mother was very against it and it has impacted on her health, it just gets sadder the more I know.The only positive part is that they are potentially coming back to Australia.

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